I know I have been MIA but I am back.

I have been dealing with some family situations but everything is better and now I can finally breath.

I promised details about my Suns birthday so here we go.

My sons first birthday was a hit. Let me tell you. Everything fell right into place. The color and theme were Royalty with Purple and Gold. You could call me the Director of Operations here!!! I put so much time and energy into this celebration and was very satisfied with the outcome. All things went well and better than planned. Of course I felt like I was swept in time. Everything went so fast, moved so fast. I was so anxious I barely slept. The days before the party I was like a working horse pacing myself so I could finish the race.

Did you take off from work? Yes of course I took off from work. I had to. It would be impossible to accomplish a first birthday party after work in the evenings with a close to one year old to attend to and take care of the house.

Where did u get your ideas from?
I attended some children’s birthday parties throughout the year which inspired me to throw mine. I also researched a lot via Pinterest and the internet.

Is there a particular store you bought the party items from? I order a good amount of things off the internet. I researched prices so that I used the best deal. I looked at reviews and more importantly I didn’t jump at the first things I seen. Party city was for my last min items and a few other things that made sense to buy from them.

Was it a lot of work?
It was a lot of work and if I didn’t plan properly it would’ve turned into a disaster. I was the only one making the chocolate covered items. Keko’s dad did help with the goodie bags but that was about all the help I received. Of course I received man power to help bring the items to the party but the decorating was all on me. Of course I paid someone to do the balloons and someone else to make the cakes. I am not skilled in those areas yet.

Would you throw another party?
Of course I would. Seeing how everything came together and the joy on everyone’s face young and old was worth it all. I actually can’t wait for the next event.

I made candy apples, purple and yellow chocolate dipped rice Krispy Treats , purple and Yellow chocolate dipped pretzels. I also made the goodie bags. I was very proud of myself because I allowed myself to be creative and I enjoyed. I felt so good after seeing all my ideas become a reality. There were kids running everywhere. Kids with painted faces. Kids with cotton candy in there hands. Kids with sand art around there necks. Kids eating. Kids jumping, crying and happy. The kids were all having fun and that brought me joy.

Though this was a celebration it was a revelation to me in regards to a few things on different levels. I realized that I do have creative talent when I am in the right environment. Many things are stifling me or are like road blocks they prohibit me from expanding. I must figure out what it may be. I must learn how to give 100% for everything I do that I love. Now that isn’t hard but there are a few things that I do that I don’t love and I don’t give my all. So I must do what I love or love what I do or I will be distracted and disengaged. That’s me.

My sons first birthday meant the world to me. For the people I love I give 100% and on this day I didn’t get it back. I’m disappointed because of the image these particular people display but they just don’t show and prove. I wanted to retaliate and bug out but I know it’s not worth it because Kekos birthday was a hit without them. The ones that were there were supposed to be there were. The after party of course took place at my house. The celebration continued. Kids were playing, adults were all laughing and talking. I just stood for a moment off to the side and watched as life was taking place. It was such a joy to have family in my apartment there for Keko.
In that moment I was overjoyed and ecstatic. It felt like a dream. His birthday was so perfect.