Being a Mommy my weekend schedule consists of shopping with the baby and taking my Mom shopping. I don’t get to go out because I love being with my Son every chance I get. You have to almost pry my hands off of him to make me separate from him. I wish I could bring him to work with me. I understand there will be a time for hanging out just not now. I accept that with my new role.

So I’m going to give you the usual run down for my Saturday. We start out at about one in the afternoon and finish at about 7pm ish. Don’t laugh but this is usually my weekends. Being a New Mommy my schedule on the weekdays does not permit me to shop but forces me to cram all my extra activities into the weekend. There is never a dull moment in Parenthood. So you can understand the joy and freedom when my little one spent time with his Daddy without me while I went to shop. Yippiee

The idea of just getting in my car to go sounded awesome. I almost ran to the car before he changed his mind. I had no stroller to fold. No car seat to snap in. No Baby to kiss before we pulled off. I missed hearing him babbling in the back or just grunting to put him self to sleep. The simple little things that let me know he was there. I missed all of that. As I got out of the car to head into the store I walked past the back door. As I usually do. But No Baby car seat. I felt an emptiness but Keko was with Daddy. I breathed a big sigh and continued to the store. I just swung my hands freely with no stroller to push.

I can’t imagine what my life would be like without my little Prince. Actually it’s scary for me to even try to imagine. All those things I did before don’t even matter. You ask me what I did before him? Mmmm…. I filled my time with a bunch of nonsense. My life has a new found purpose. Being around my Nieces and Nephews brought me so much joy. I enjoyed being their Auntie. I treated them as my own. Always thinking of them, buying them gifts, spending as much time with them as I could and making sure they always smiled. I modeled my example of a stand out Aunt to my Auntie Debbie (God bless her soul). My Auntie was so beautiful inside and out. Although she passed many moons ago the memories I have of her are so precious. She definitely left an etch on my heart.

I have so much love in me. What do I do with this? During the last 10 years of my life I silently prepared for Wife hood and Motherhood. I had this idea in my head implanted by society that marriage would come first. It almost did. Those close to me knew of my desire to build a family. I wanted it but I was not willing to make the wrong choice. I didn’t want to make the mistake many young women make and that was not making sure I was ready. You have to be ready mentally, physically and spiritually. I didn’t want to make a selfish move that would cost me a life full of regret, extra stress and unhappiness. The person you choose to create this life with also has to be ready. I’ve seen my fair share of fatherless homes. I’m sure you have too. I was not willing to create a child knowing that it would be doomed to fail from the start. This is why I took my time to have a child.

And so now I use my Aunt Deb as an example of a loving Mother. My Mother as an example of a committed Mom. My Grandmother as a dedicated unrelenting love. These three woman helped shape n mold me into Me. The Daughter, Sister, Friend, Lover, and Mother. I’m evolving everyday but the core of who I am remains. I am a Lover first. I came here because the love of two people brought me here. The love of experience kept me here and it’s only right I share this love with someone else.

I got exactly what I asked for and now my days and nights are filled with diaper changes, spit up designed clothes, ears filled with baby talk, wobbly legs and big cheesy smiles. I love the decision I made regardless of my lack of free time. What are some things you have done for love? Have you done those things for the right reasons? Who are your role models of a Supreme love?